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October 21st, 2009
06:55 pm


random life shit
i just feel the need to share my views on life right now....sooooo much crazy shit goin on......i was married for 4 years and with my husband for 5 but it is finally over....its crazy tho cuz we live together just with seperate bedrooms....i feel like this is the best thing for our 2 children right now....i dont know tho because i spend the least amount of time at home as possible so i dont have to bearound him....but it means that i miss out on time with my children and i feel really bad about that.....im too nice a person i know anybody else would have booted his ass out a lonnnnng time ago but he has nowhere to go and i have no one to watch our children....does that make me a user....i kinda feel like it does....part of the reason i dont like be around him is cuz i can see in his eyes how sad he is....but he hert me soooo bad and made me sad for soooo long that i really dont feel that bad....i dont knowwwwwwww

Current Location: mandas house
Current Music: in the trunk techn9ne
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September 4th, 2008
09:04 pm


its like talking to myself....
i really feel like i'm talking to myself because i don't think anyone is reading any of this...it  makes me sad...all my friends that i had on here no longer keep up there livejournal....but anyway...it's still fun to write....i was dying all day today...i was sooo fuckin hot....in my house it was 85 degrees....it's finally cooling down a little bit....thank god....i can't wait for this little girl to come out....i guess my cervix is thinning which is good because with malachi it def wasn't doing anything......

Current Mood: blankblank

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September 3rd, 2008
09:37 pm


anxiously waiting.....
so i have 11 days to go....i'm getting anxious....i really don't know what to expect because malachi was 9 days late and i had to be induced....so i'm questioning every little pain and movement....but i'm also really excited and i can't wait to meet this new little person...my husband started working third shift tonight at his job...so that will be a little different...i don't know if i'll be able to get to sleep right away....that's a good thing though because i need to get some major cleaning done in my bedroom to get my bed up and all set up...plus i have to clean my livingroom because it's a nighmare...hahaha...but i can't really do any of that until malachi goes to sleep and he doesn't seem too tired....so we shall see.... well scratch that...i just went to check on him and he's passed out on the couch..so i will put him into bed and begin cleaning.....

Current Mood: awaketrying to be anyway...
Current Music: gimme dat blood....
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August 27th, 2008
08:25 pm


Writer's Block: The Meaning of Love
What does love mean to you, and why? Have you always felt this way?
 love means wanting and needing to be with that person....and when i say needing i mean you feel dead inside if you are not with that person....by with i mean in a relationship not right next to....i know this from experience and yes i have always felt this way.....love also means someone you can be completely who you truly are and they will still care for you....and someone you can be absolutely rotten too...because we hurt the ones we love the most...i think this is because we know that they will stll love you us no matter what....love is an amazing and horrible feeling all at the same time because when you love someone it hurts that much more when they hurt you or don't love you back....but i wouldn't trade the feeling for anything in the world.....

Current Mood: contemplativecontemplative

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August 24th, 2008
05:41 pm


its been a looooong time
i haven't written in forever...i wasn't even sure if i still had a journal or not....well this will be all for now...i'll try to continue at some other time.... 

Current Mood: crazycrazy

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October 2nd, 2005
02:53 pm


I'M HOMEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!YAYAYAYAYAY......well that's all i have to say for now...<3 andrea

Current Mood: thankfulthankful
Current Music: the used- i caught fire

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August 31st, 2005
02:31 am


well i'll make this brief...i've been really busy lately and i'm also getting relaly big...i know im having a boy now..malachi miller...can't wait...ive been stayign away from the internet because someone did something really cruel and hurtful to me on mypsace..they hacked into my page and deleted what i had and wrote horrible things about me as if i was writing them and i can't do anthing about it becuase she changed my passwerd and everything..so if yer my true friend hopefully you would already know that but i'm just so sick of how mean and hurtful people can be...i got to see my dad and my brother and grandpa they came to visit me and my husband dan...it was so great i miss everyoen so much...i just ahve to wait longer now till i can finally come home i don't know when that will be..but we'll see....i love you all a lot and hopefully this is read by my true friends...Love always andrea and malachi<3xxxxx

Current Mood: drainedjust sick of it all
Current Music: falling up

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July 20th, 2005
02:33 am


thought this would be interesting...

You Know You're Addicted to LiveJournal When...

If you can't access the site, you have a minor freak out - and a major case of hitting reload.

You found yourself composing journal entries during dates, movies, even sex!

When you're out, you suddenly think of a witty reply to a comment somebody made to you... several days ago.

You actually call it LJ and not Livejournal. Check.

You've downloaded some sort of LJ program which has only the purpose of making entries easier to write without going on the site manually.

You consider it a great offense if someone deletes you off their friend's list.

The first thing you do every day when you go online is check your friends journals - even before checking your email.

You actually paid money for a few extra pictures with a full account when you could actually just alternate pics when you want to for your screen icons.

When your friends ask what's new, you get mad at them because you already wrote it in your LJ and they didn't check it yet.

You have put more time into LJ than all your assignments for the semester.

You have more friends on LJ than in real life.

You've met at laest 50% of your LJ friends.

You can't seem to call your friends by their real names - only LJ names will do.

You've fallen in love with someone you met on LJ.

You have posted about a party or get together on your LJ... and random strangers showed up.

You are guilty of traveling more than an hour to meet someone with LiveJournal. (Extra points for traveling five hours or more)

You've written a protected entry about one of your LiveJournal friends. (Extra points if they eventually found out about it)

You have written posts to notify people you're going to sleep.

You talk about your LJ friends to your real life friends all the time... like they're a part of your group.

You've created a LJ community, and people actually post in it.

You've been recognized in real live by a fellow LJ'er.

You have friended someone because of their LiveJournal icon.

You have "pity friends" on your list, who you would defriend if you could.

You've pimped one of your friends on journal, trying to get people to friend him / her.

Instead of doing research, you post difficult questions on your LiveJournal.

Your pets all have their own LiveJournals.

You know, right now, how many people have friended you (without peeking).

You've stopped being friends with someone in real life because of something they've said on LJ.

You're guilty of posting sexy or nude pictures to get more people to friend you.

You have consoled yourself after a horrible day thinking "At least this will make a great LJ post"

You're jealous of people who have more friends and / or comments than you.

You have written a really great, solid post - only to be disappointed by the lack of good comments.

You're guilty of commenting excessively to get more traffic to your journal.

You've deleted a post a few minutes (or hours) after you've written it, because it seemed lame in retro spect.

You give shout outs to all your LJ friends on their birthdays.

You have an additional, secret journal that hardly anyone knows about.

You've broken up with someone - or ended a friendship - soley via LiveJournal.

You have gotten mean anonymous comments (bonus points for figuring out who it was via their IP)

You've been reported (or reported someone) to LJ Abuse.

You've been featured on LJ Drama.

You actually get these jokes and pass them on to other friends who are LJ addicts.

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Current Mood: sadmy baby's in jail...
Current Music: watching tefelishion

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July 14th, 2005
04:05 am


some new pics of me....





well i hope you enjoy looking at them as much as i did taking them...
<3 andrea

Current Mood: blankum....
Current Music: sound of the sims

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July 11th, 2005
08:46 pm


just venting...
i feel really bad because i want to cause physical harm to the guy who is letting me and my bf stay with him....the thing is he is soo mean to me...he is always calling me names and saying hurtful things...he tells my bf not to mary him, because i'm just trying to trick him into marrying me and that the child i'm carrying is not his...this is not true...but it really hurts hearing him say this kind of stuff all the time...i am a very kind and generous person and i try not to let words bother me...but i keep my feelings bottled up inside of me until...pop...i explode...i think i'm going to explode soon...this is not good because then i, my bf and my unborn child will be homeless...the thing that really hurt today is, i was supposed to have my ultrasound today...i've been looking forward to this for a long time...and i let him and his gf use the last 5 dollars on my bridge card so that they could get money for gas for my appointment...then today he decides he doesn't want to take me...i was really heartbroken because i really want to see my baby...now i have to wait almost another whole month before i can possibly have an ultrasound....i really want to say a lot of things to him but i can't, or i will really be in a lot of trouble...and i feel bad because he is lettign us live here free of charge but he just is really hurtful to me...i don't know what to do....posting this in all my communites to see what feedback i can get...love andrea

Current Mood: stressedgrrrrrr.....
Current Music: book of lies- sacreligion

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